Domestic Princess!;

16 September 2005

Today I am having a really annoying problem with the internet...we have cable and for some reason it's not working right and it's driving me crazy. Anyways...my little boy didn't go to be until 10:30 last night.He woke up at about seven this morning. Our alarm didn't go off this morning so my husband was 15 minutes late for work, I really hope he doesn't get into too much trouble. He should be home soon for lunch, I can't wait because I miss him a lot. I am going to have to wash my car and clean it out because it is really nasty...sometimes I look at the inside of my car and I look at my son and just ask WHY is he so messy...there is snacks and toys and the such all over my backseat floorboard. My nephew left gummi bears in my car and they are melted into my seat...my brand new car...but thankfully if I can't get it out Toyota will replace the fabric for free. I am so excited about having another baby. I love my son and I am excited about sharing my love with another child.
I used to write poems but it seems like I can no longer write anything good. They used to just kind of flow out no matter what I was doing, but now that I am happy with my life I got nothing. I gues I used to be depressed a lot when I was younger and I have books and books of poetry but now I got nothing, I can't even write anything good for my husband, it drives me crazy. I wish I could write something meaningful and from the heart for him. I also contemplate on writing a book, I'm not sure what about though I just like to write, I'm not even sure if I am any good at writing. I just enjoy it. I miss college so much that I daydream about researching for an essay...what is wrong with me, I think I am going crazy. I want ot go back to college but I really don't think we can afford it right now. Maybe after our income tax comes in in april. I know thats a long ways a way but I guess I am just thinking long term here. If I hadn't gotten pregnent I could have my degree right now. I did two semesters before I had my son. {No regrets there} I only wish that I could have afforded to go right back into college after I had him. College is my big goal in life...it's not even the fact that I want the degree for a job, it's that I just want to be able to actually have the degree.
I have been feeling the baby move around kind of randomly throughout the day, it's so cool, I totally remember feeling all of this with my son. We don't know the sex of the baby...it's not an intentional surprise but the military only does one ultrasound and they did it when I was eight weeks, so we probably won't know what the sex is going to be. At first I was kind of upset because we are really hoping for a girl but after like two months I got over the fact that I wasn't going to know. Now it's kind of neat not knowing what the sex of the baby is going to be. We will be happy no matter what, we would just like a girl because we don't intend on having any more children.
Well the internet just got fixed, I'm not really sure what was wrong with it...anyways...I think I will write more later on.

Thought of by MrsMcCrory

2:58 PM

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