You ever just find out something and it really made you want to throw up?
Well I'm there right now.
I found out some stuff that I probably shouldn't have by being sneaky which again is wrong but I just couldn't help myself and I don't like it when people hide stuff from me. So as to not get into details and reveal what I did. I will not explain.
I just feel sick to my stomach right now and I don't know what to do.
Lieing bothers me more than anything else in the world. Some one I care for a lot doesn't seem to be the person I thought they were and I don't know what to do about it.
I think we will just invite friends over tonight and get drunk and play some drunken darts. What else can you do, you know. Besides I know I will have fun doing that.
Anyways, I have been trying to evaulate mine and my husbands relationship these past few days. I don't know what to do anymore, it's as if everything will be fine as long as I don't get upset over anyything and I don't do anything to upset him, yet he can do what ever the hell he feels like. There are so many examples I could through out there but I won't.
I've been trying to keep the house clean even though I can no help and no appriciation but whatever. Better than him getting made because there are toys on the floor.
Found out his deployment date today. Yup he's going to be gone for our three year anniversary. Also he said that it could go from 90 days to 120 days. Apparently nothing is set in stone and it's all up in the air to change. Stupid military. They can't ever make up their minds.
We need a break though. We really do just need some time apart, this deployment really did come at a good time because I feel we are having problems and he damn near refuses to talk about them and try and work our way through them. What ever. I am so tired of carind.
I was telling my mom last night that it's so close to the point where I wouldn't even care if someone hit on me, I would feel better about myself because I'm not getting no compliments at him.
I mean he even called me fat the other day, and then he was like aww I'm just playing, and I'm talking he was saying I was fat before I even had kids. Okay I am going to stop here.